Making the transition...

September 21, 2024

It’s getting longer between posts because we are currently in the midst of packing up a home we’ve lived in for 21 years. It’s bitter-sweet, thinking about all the memories, good and bad, that we’re experienced here. When we moved here our kids were in high school and now, they’re in their mid to late thirties with kids of their own. There have been many more good memories than bad, but this is the house in which I lived while going through my most difficult times emotionally and mentally. I will miss this space. It is situated on a beautiful and productive piece of property, one that we’ve made our own over the years.

We are relocating just down the road, to our daughter and son-in-law’s house. That’s also where 4 of our grandchildren live, which gives me a lot of joy. Since they were born, I took on the role of second mom and I have loved every minute of it. Being mentally and emotionally overwhelmed the past 9 months has robbed me of my ability to nurture and enjoy my grandkids as much as I usually do. And I know they miss our connectedness as well.

God commanded, be strong and courageous, Do not be afraid or dismayed because God goes with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9)

I’m finding it very difficult to accept my current condition; slow-moving, uncoordinated, anxious, depressed and unable to serve others at the level I’ve become accustomed to. I thought I’d feel much better by now and that seems to be the consensus with my family and my doctors. My caregivers keep trying new things, hoping that this time the ‘magic bullet’ effect will happen. But very little changes, if anything, because there is no one thing that will heal me completely, except of course, God.

God is able to instantly heal me, and you. It’s true but He normally doesn’t work that way. He wants us to trust Him completely, rely on Him faithfully, and that won’t happen if He just steps in at the onset of pain and struggle, every time we go through something difficult. Yes, of course, I’d like to be well by now and I don’t understand what He’s trying to accomplish through this experience, but I know that God is good, His promises still apply, He will never leave me or forsake me, and His word is always TRUE!

God will hold my right hand, saying to me, fear not, for I will help you. (Isaiah 41:13)

So, I will have to wait on Him, crying when I need to, talking things out, adjusting treatments and seeking the peace of joy and contentment that is only found in Him. He is enough so that means that I am enough. I don’t need more. As a believer in Christ, I already have everything I need, I just need to trust him. He is on my side, and yours.

Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, WAIT I say, on the Lord. (Psalm 27: 14)

This is not to say that we don’t need our meds, counselors, doctors or any other health professionals. God works through people so don’t throw away or discontinue anything without proper consultation with your caregiver. I’ll have to sign off for now. It’s been a very busy preparing to move day and I’m quite tired.