There's always hope!

October 11, 2024

Here I am, on my birthday, still struggling with some physical limitations. It’s been a hard go these past 10 months but, in some ways, I am improving. My husband and family are doing their best to help me deal with the physical problems and to care for me well. I also have a very caring family doctor, naturopath and chiropractor, as well as a great counselor. I am very thankful for all of them.

Most everyone is in agreement now that what I am suffering from is long Covid, because the physical symptoms are pointing toward it, and no one seems to be able to figure out what else could be going on. I am also utilizing many natural treatments. There are many more possibilities for treatment than most people are aware of. Also, traditional treatments can be successfully combined with natural methods with good results quite often.

Wait for the Lord, be strong and let your heart take courage. Wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27:14)

I don’t really know what to talk about today. I’ve been doing a little backsliding lately. I was’ taking a medication that seemed to be improving my mood but then I ran out of it. It’s hard to get because it isn’t available everywhere. When I’m dealing with low mood and physical difficulties, I tend to feel like I’m in the way or useless, because I’m normally very active and hard-working. But I know that my family doesn’t see me that way and God certainly doesn’t. It’s because God sees us as we actually are, not the way we feel we are.

It is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. (Proverbs 19:21)

When we become Christians God’s spirit fills us and wants to guide us in everything we do in life, but His spirit won’t over-ride our free will. Sometimes I wish He would make my choices for me since I so often don’t make the best ones for myself. But I trust Him – there is a reason that He hasn’t plucked me out of my situation. I don’t understand how this could be a positive thing but I do know that growth can only happen after a seed dies and transformation takes place only after that.

It's very difficult to experience so much turmoil day after day, never knowing when improvements will come because, when it’s been happening for so long, you’re not really sure that healing will ever come. It’s not true that things will never improve. It’s a process, everything is, and everything has a beginning, middle and end. It’s just the feelings that come along with this that make it feel impossible.

Even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. (Psalm 139:10)

But even if it were impossible for us, NOTHING is impossible for God, ever. Take it from someone who’s been through it more than once. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. I know it takes a lot of work and commitment, but it will be worth it in the end. Don’t ever give up!

My God is my rock in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Psalm 18:2)