When does it get easier?

August 21, 2024

I haven’t been writing as much as I was. I’m not sure why, but it may be a lack of desire to do much of anything. I have been dealing with lack of desire for a while now, with cooking, cleaning, working outside and most other activities. I still do them, although at a slower pace than before. I’m still in the process of weaning off un-needed medications and I think that effects my ambition as well.

I can do everything, through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

We are currently in the midst of selling our house and moving in with our daughter’s family. I have found the preparation process very stressful because I am not up to my normal energy level. Therefore, I can’t achieve the level of work, cleaning and readiness that I am used to in myself, but I can’t let that bring me down. I am doing all I am able to do at this time, and sometimes I surprise myself with what I’m capable of. That’s what I, and maybe you, have to do more often – stop listening to the negative voice that says we can’t before we even try. We are capable of doing so much more than we give ourselves credit for.

You will probably have friends, family and doctors tell you that you look better, like some healing has taken place, even though you may feel the same. Don’t just disregard their comments because of the way you feel. We are often the last to feel the change that others see in us. And we see ourselves every day so we may not see the small improvements. And remember, we’re often our own worst enemy. I know I am too hard on myself and expect much more from myself than I do others.

So if the Son sets you free, you will be absolutely free. (John 8:36)

And remember that what we believe about ourselves plays a powerful role in how we feel, both emotionally and physically. I’m learning that the hard way. It takes much more effort and time to work through the issues when they’re wrapped up in faulty thinking. I’m still struggling, most of the time, to feel secure in my self-confidence, even though I do many things on my own. I, and maybe you, have to put more stock in what we can accomplish, rather than what we can’t do.

The Lord created Jacob and formed Israel. Now this is what the Lord says, ‘Do not be afraid because I have reclaimed you. I have called you by name. You are mine! (Isaiah 43:1)

Sometimes I need to be reminded of how strong I am. Maybe you do as well. While going through an intense struggle for emotional wellness, I get up every day. I get myself to appointments, I do daily housework and cooking (although a lesser amount and at a slower pace), I take care of my basic needs and even help out others from time to time. It takes an incredible amount of strength to do what we’ve been doing without being able to see the finish line. And there is a finish line, everything has to run its course, but it does eventually finish.

And you have become a new person. This new person is continually renewed in knowledge to be like its creator. (Colossians 3:10)